february is for the birds

I have not been digging February this year.  It has been a bad month.  

Notice my last post was at the beginning of this month.

I have had this lingering feeling of overwhelm-ment.  I felt like I had 50 things on my to-do list everyday, and only get to 3 of them.  Those 3 are taking care of Davie, doing my job, and breathing.  Oh, and I should mention, when I say taking care of Davie, I mean what we can fit in.  Many days we both go without bathing.  Anyways, I don't want to blame this all on motherhood.  That's just a piece of the pie.  My job takes up way too much time, thought, and effort for this stage of life.  I HAVE, however, made sure that the time I spent with Davie has been enjoyable!  

I am weary of talking about the future and what jobs we will have and how we will do this and that.  Oy.  

This last week I have been sick.  Not deathly ill . . . just enough to be annoyed and miserable and unpleasant with company.  I think this turns off any nurturing instinct that Steven might have had to begin with.  

The worst thing about this month is the news I got this week about my best friend Lisa.  They found a tumor in her brain.  After 5 days now, it seems like this is still all they know.  They should be finding out next week if it is malignant and then scheduling her surgery.  It seems selfish for me to make this paragraph about me after that news, but I can't imagine how she is feeling.  All I know is that I am devastated.  It is hard to see someone you love that is usually so full of life and energy and health, all of a sudden take a blow like this. 

I am ready for some good news, especially regarding Lisa, and I am praying that March brings joy when it arrives.  

The Dark Sea of Baby Teeth

Actually, this blog has nothing to do with Davie's teeth (or lack of).  

One of the things I hate about teaching 4th grade is that the kids are always pulling their teeth out.  It is so gross.  You should know I hate dentistry more than the average person.  Anyways, I'll be teaching and at any given moment I could look out and see at least one child wiggling a tooth back and forth, back and forth.  It gives me the shivers just talking about it.  Sure enough, they'll pull it out, and walk the aisle to me like they are holding an alien - horrifying, yet they are proud that they are the one holding it.  Except I could handle an alien, I think . . . but I can't handle a bloody baby tooth.  I forgot how scary it is to be child and have your teeth falling out all the time.  How did I get through that stage of life? 

I want so badly to take tap-dancing lessons.  I can't explain it.  I took a class in college, and surprisingly wasn't terrible.  Where can I take adult tap dance classes?  And would anyone like to join me in this venture?

GABRIEL DAYNE DESHAZO IS HERE!!!  And NO WONDER he took so long to come out.  The child is HUGE!!!  All the more for Davie to love!  Congratulations to Megan and Kevin.  I promise to be a great mother-in-law to your son.  

the things we do

I do this thing with Davie in the evenings where I "scat" the same little melody.  She cracks up.  Usually she lays limp in my arms with her eyes bright and smiling and her mouth open wide.  She waits til I pause and then she laughs, then she pauses so I can continue.  We were fixing to eat and I was doing this with her, and I grabbed the camera real quick.  The problem is once she sees that camera she is mesmerized and stares blankly instead of continuing the cuteness she was doing  before.  So I tried to hide it for awhile to catch her in the act.  Please ignore my stupidity in the video and try to focus on how cute she is.

Today after school I came home, changed clothes, got Davie bundled and we went for a walk/jog in the park.  My body wondered what on Earth was going on.  Honestly, I was just briskly walking and then every once in awhile running.  Sheesh!  I'm hoping that it was harder because I was pushing a monstrous stroller, and that if I had my arms free and swinging I wouldn't feel like a ran a marathon.

In other news, JENNIE had her baby!!!!  A little baby boy named Asher.  I can't wait to meet the little tyke!  Congrats Sanders family! 

February 5th - the day of great babies!!!

So, not one, but TWO of my very best friends are probably going to have their babies this Thursday.  

Megan Kathleen Kelly-DeShazo is being induced on Thursday early in the morning.  I am so excited to meet little Gabe.  I bet Megan is too (after 41 weeks of pregnancy).  Megan is going to be such a great mom.  She was a fabulous roommate to me in college.  We were each other's place of solace much of the time when it got dramatic in the house.  We shared everything (whether she wanted to or not).  And we were there through men galore, and the early days of the ones who stuck.  I love her so much.  She is quick to laugh . . . and she has many days of laughter ahead.  

Jennifer Renee David-Sanders is being induced on Wednesday evening.  It's extra-exciting not knowing if she is having a little boy or a little girl (but I will love Asher or Charis equally, whichever gender he/she may be).  Her due date was yesterday, and her heart (and belly) is heavy that this child hasn't come yet.  Oh, but that baby will be here soooo soon.  Jennie is probably my favorite person to spend time with.  I wish she lived next door . . . but no, she lives in Tulsa.  She cracks me up, and for some reason, she is likewise entertained by me.  She is up for anything.  One of the many reasons I love this woman is because I imagine that she is very much like my mother was like when she was younger.

I am SOOOO excited for both of these women.  They are going to love being moms, and they are going to be so good at it.  Luckily, they both have great partners who are going to be such great dads too.  Good luck friends!  I'm going to be thinking about you and praying for you ALL week